I hate how I feel right now.

I just feel eh. I mean, it's like my brain overloaded with too much information and exploded and I'm left just feeling nothing. It's like nothing and everything at the same time. I don't know. I guess I'm sort of debating whether or not to go to church with MVOP tomorrow. Churches that MVOP go to start really late (we are meeting at 10, probably won't meet until 10:30, and church won't be starting until 11 or something), and goes on for 2 and a half hours, whereas I'm used to church being done with by 11:30 or so after about an hour and a half long service. Maybe even earlier. And the thing is, I get so much more out of the shorter services than the longer services. I don't want to call the churches Black churches because that seems wrong in my mind for some reason, but I guess predominantly African American churches are like that. I'd rather go to church with Dustin tomorrow and lie about not feeling well or even purposefully oversleeping. Going to church with MVOP feels more like a burden because the last few times I went with them I got nothing out of it. I get more out of Bible Study or IV. Plus the Packer game is on at noon tomorrow, and it's an important game. In Green Bay, church always ends before noon. Dustin who is VERY spiritually active I'm sure is thinking "This guy is not in tune with Christ" but church going in Green Bay is a lot different than church going in Decatur for about 4 months out of the year, because you don't have a team that is so much a part of the town and brings the town together.

It's not like I don't like going to church but I dont' know. I'm just getting a eh feeling. I'm thinking about just driving and going to a church tomorrow. Or something like that. Someplace where I won't fall asleep since the speaker stops after every two words and explains things in ways I don't understand. But to give that credit it's a lot more interesting that SOME churches I've been too. I'd rather go someplace like Bethel, or GBCC. Hartland, where Dustin used to go, sounds a LOT like Bayside, and has 180 and stuff. Too flashy for me there. GBCC is almost the limit. My ideal church is a great worship service and a great speaker. GBCC has a great worship service and an ok speaker. Bethel had an ok worship service and a great speaker when I was there. I need someplace like that combined. Hmm. There was always that list of churches at IV, and I remember some of the names of them, maybe I'll look in the phone book and just drive to one of them tomorrow. I think that's why I'm feeling the way about MVOP church days. I don't get anything out of the service and it just makes me feel outcast when I see all these people weeping and jumping up and down and I'm not feeling anything. I'd rather go someplace and learn and go deeper in my relationship with Christ, like I've been doing lately. If anyone at MVOP asks I'll just let on a white lie or something; I mean I feel kind of bad but 1. I want to learn something when I go to church not be bored and 2. I dont' want to miss the football game.

I feel better now.

Christmas List:

a. Aqua Teen Hunger Force DVD (Nov. 18)
b. The Two Towers Special Edition DVD (Around that time too)
c. The Matrix Reloaded DVD (WIDESCREEN)
d. Homestar Runner clothing (Hoodies, hats, shirts, no preference, just a variety)
e. MONEYS

The end... for now...

Illinois Drivers...

USE YOUR FRICKING TURN SIGNAL WHEN YOU MERGE A LANE!!!!

Thank you.

Decatur Children

OK normally I'd be at men's choir right now but I'm skipping it today for a few reasons:
a. It's not for credit
b. I have other things to do today
c. I was late getting back from Johns Hill tutoring with Chip

Speaking of which, the drive back was way more eventive than the drive there or the actual tutorage. After tutoring Chip ran into a lady from Ragtime which he was in last year so they chatted and then after that we couldn't get out of the parking spot because a stupid lady would NOT move her car. When we finally got out, first a kid almost ran in front of us, and then WE SAW A BOY PEEING IN THE FRONT YARD. At first I thought it was a hose, like some guy was watering the lawn, since the stream was really high. Then I thought the boy was pretending to be peeing with the hose since it was like that. Then driving by (thank God his back was to the road) I saw his pants were open. Chip was like "Tell me I didn't just see that." It was gross. Shouldn't you be in school or on the way home from school or something, kid? And regardless of that SHOULDN'T YOU BE ON A TOILET OR SOMETHING? That's just WRONG.

FIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIFIF

I went to the first and most likely only Five Iron Frenzy concert of my life tonight and it was WICKED AWESOME. First this guy sang and he was good he reminded me of Caleb or John Mayer. Then Holland came up and they were good, and people were moshing even during them; or attempting to at least. Then Bleach came up and people moshed and I was moshed over to the middle RIGHT IN FRONT! Talk about lucky. Then FIF came on and it was awesome. And the guy broke the ceiling it was great.

Nice night

Go red sox and cubs!

OK bible study was amazing. Then I watched the yankees lose. Then I went to the midi lab where I got most of my composition done. Then I went back and now I'm going to watch the rest of Frequency.

I HATE THE CHIEFS ESPECIALLY JEROME WOODS

Stupid Chiefs HAVE to come back in the 4th quarter and get all of these unanswered points to tie it up and go to OT. They absolutely HAD to remain undefeated. Stupid Jerome Woods HAD to intercept Brett Favre and take it back for a TD, then had to come back and cause Ahman to fumble. It's all his fault the Packers lost. I HATE THE CHIEFS and I hope it is the Pack vs. the Chiefs in the Super Bowl because the Packers are going to beat them just like they did in Super Bowl I.

Teams I hate (in order, and only football teams):
1. Minnesota Vikings
2. Kansas City Chiefs (up 9 points from never)
3. Tampa Bay Buccaneers
4. Atlanta Falcons
5. Dallas Cowboys
6. St. Louis Rams
7. Arizona Cardinals
8. Philadelphia Eagles
9. San Fransisco 49ers
10. Chicago Bears

Chicago isn't higher on the list because they suck, and I like that because it makes it a guaranteed win against the Packers.

I forgot about the POT LUCK that was on monday

I just realized I forgot to talk about IV potluck three days ago and how i laughed so hard because Amanda pushed Joe and it didn't even sway her and I was the only one laughing. And then Weber grabbed her by the throat (soft) and she just kept talking like his hand wasn't around her neck, and just nonchalantly unpried it and stuff and I thought that was funny too. It was funny. OK i just wrote that so I would remember it a week from now or something.

November 18th

AQUA TEEN HUNGER FORCE DVD COMES OUT! PARENTS IF YOU READ THIS THAT IS A BIG HINT HINT

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