Motivation

Some days I just feel no motivation...

I need a place to blog my feelings and emotions, but I really don't feel motivated to write. Days after school I just feel like collapsing and zoning out into playing a pointless game or watching a rerun for the millionth time. It's very tough getting myself out of that rut and just going again.

Some days I think because of this that I may be a little depressed. I'm not depressed about my life in general but how consumed my life is to where I barely have enough time during the day to recharge and just chill out a little.

Then again I could just be stuck in the middle of the February blues that any teacher knows about...

Almost 3 years

OK It's been almost 3 years since I've posted in this blog. I'm going to try blogging again, whether it is in here or on my live journal.

So... what has happened in the last 3 years? I will review 2006-2009 right now.

First, I got out of the subbing gig in Green Bay. (Jun '06)
I FINALLY got a teaching job teaching elementary music in the Chicago area less than a week before school started.
I moved to Addison, IL, a suburb of Chicago (Aug. '06)
Joined the Apollo Chorus of Chicago (Jan '07)
Was in a relationship for about 1 1/2 months. (Feb '07)
Rekindled a relationship with my ex, Vanessa (Mar '07)
Got let go after 1 year teaching. (Jun '07)
Got hired as a middle school music teacher. (Jul '07)
Proposed to Vanessa at Spiaggia (Feb '08)
Went to MENC National Convention (Apr '08)
Married Vanessa (Aug '08)
And now it's (Jan '09)
And now we have decided to move to oak park this summer.

Hope that sums up everything.

At Southwest High School Today. I am tired. Long weekend. Interview went well. I just applied for another position in Cedarburg, WI. Until I know I have a job, I'm going to keep looking.

Haven't posted in this one in a while because all the sub jobs I was getting I was too busy to make an entry. Im at lincoln elementary today. Tomorrow is my interview in LaSalle, IL. Last weekend was Solo and Ensemble. It was very hard. At one point I was suposed to be in 4 places. But I can't help that. Ok bye.

West again today, this time for choir, and I have no idea what I am going to do, because there are no plans, because of the blizzard yesterday. We got over 13 inches of snow. I guess that was a record. So I understand, but I wish I knew more of what I had to do with these kids besides solo & ensemble, because I know that not all of them are doing solo & ensemble. But eh, what can you do.

1st one of 2006

About 2 hours ago, I got a call that I got an interview in La Salle, IL! It's a high school job! Yeah, it's a little out there, but it's not too far from Chicago, and it's not too far from friends who still live near Millikin. So I'm excited for that. It's on March 2. I may have to have a weekend at Millikin or something; either that, or a weekend at Platteville, or something like that. We shall see.

Not going to London anymore, it's too expensive. Wah. Oh well, I'll do something at home, and go on vacation somewhere this summer.

Blah

West today. I was at Nicolet Elem. on monday. I have to go to washington tomorrow for a while to accompany people, and then I"m at Preble until late doing sectionals. However, I wonder if that is still going to happen with the pending snow storm approaching. So who knows. Then West again on Friday. And that is this week.

My arm hurts.

Teaching a Preble today and tomorrow.

I am exhausted. I had an awful day yesterday, and I think it took it's toll on my body. My eyes are tired, my shoulders and neck and arms hurt, I can't think straight. It's tough. But it's a test as well, because I KNOW I'm going to feel this way as a teacher sometimes.

That's about all.

At Red Smith just for the morning doing elementary.

I think I'm getting a cold. It started yesterday, and I've been taking Airbourne nonstop and drinking orange juice and lots of stuff. I still feel achy and tired and my nose is runny. So hopefully that's all that will happen. Or maybe it's because the last two nights I've gotten less sleep than I should. Last night I didn't sleep well at all because mom and aria and crystal were so loud talking and ari was blasting my fair lady. So grr. I'm taking a nap this afternoon. Maybe I can sleep this cold away.

Elementary at Danz today. It's fun although it wears me out sometimes. I'm only teaching Kindergarten and 1st grade today. So I only need to look at Lesson Plans. Elementary lesson plans are so nice because they list everything. And you don't have to adapt as much. High school you can wing it and get away with it but not always with success. So you know. Some of these kids are so sweet.

The rest of this week depends on if I get called or not. Who knows if I will. If it's not music I'm less likely to take it. At this point money is not an issue. I just want to teach music. Not tech ed, not elementary grades, not special ed. I just love teaching music to people of any age.

My next class is coming so bye.